Friday, November 12, 2010

Jessie J is a bad bitch.
Her first single 'Do it Like a Dude' doesn't show her incredible voice & I hope people catch on to her through songs like these.
She is anything but ordinary.

Random Daily Haiku:

I've been waiting for
a certain kind of feeling
that will never come.

Lil' Flip's new song 'Kim Kardashian':

Is fucking awful.
No joke.
This song is so horrible, I'm deleting my illegal download of it as we speak.
I don't know if Kim herself actually digs this song, but I would sue Flip for slander.
This song is like taking a video of Kim having sex & selling it to the masses...
Oh, wait.

Thursday, November 11, 2010


-Finish my nightly YouTube spree
-Wash my face
-Brush my teeth
-Read & write for a while
-Pray to God I don't get bit by another spider
-Try to catch some z's before the sun comes up

Hope everyone's wishes came true on 11/11...
Goodnight. <3

This video could make me smile on the worst day of my life. (Don't test me on that)
Phil seems like such a good person...& check out that hot piece of ass in the black & pink behind him.

I would do just about anything for a cool bedroom.
I guess my room has potential, but I live in an apartment & painting the walls would be a pain in the ass.
This room is AMAZING.
I'd shoot the person if they ever dreamed of leaving it.

Random Daily Haiku:

I want so much more
than you could ever give me.
I need to give up.

It's 11/11.

I wonder if everyone's wishes will come true next year on 11/11/11. I always seem to make the same wish when it 11:11, & I guess it somewhat comes true.
I'll try a new wish today & hopefully today's date will be on my side.

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Getting up at 6 again tomorrow.
Gonna finish watching Terror videos, listening to Butch Walker & drinking tea, so I can hit the sack.
Until tomorrow...
Goodnight. <3

Now Playing:

Woe, Is Me's debut album, Number[s], has two tracks with Jonny Craig on it &, needless to say, I'm digging it. 'Desolate (the Conductor)' & 'Our Number(s)' are both amazing, but you need to listen to them in that order. It's kind of fun to hear the contrast between Jonny's vocals & WIM's vocalist, Tyler Carter's vocals. Tyler has a serious voice & I think that's one of the main reasons Jonny was so willing to help on the songs. At times I think Tyler tries too hard to sing like Jonny, especially with the rougher vocals (gotta leave those to the Master), but he's got a similar r&b-tinged voice that sounds orgasmic against rock music. Tyler Carter is one to watch...espcially for Jonny maniacs like myself.

Check out the songs, above =)

My Tumblr was my life last summer. My entire life...& everything in it.
I started the blog on the 4th of July, 2009 &, as anyone who has a Tumblr knows, it was confusing as fuck at first. From reblogs, to likes, to Tumblarity, to followers, Tumblr was initially difficult to figure out. But once I got it down, I was totally & completely addicted. It got to the point where I would go to bed early in the morning after being on Tumblr all night, wake up, go straight to Tumblr & backtrack on everything I'd missed while I was asleep.
Yup, it was that bad...or good.
Look, I was a new high school graduate, with one workaholic friend & it was summer. I don't talk on the phone, I don't party & I sure as fuck didn't have a job, so Tumblr became my best friend last year.
My first follower was a kid named Tyler. This 16 year old indie kid who had unique taste in music & liked to look at strawberries. He posted a playlist of songs he was listening to at the time, complete with download links & I ate that shit up. Some of it was annoying, tortured artist shit & some was decent tortured artist shit, but I was happy that someone was freely giving me music to listen to.
I dowloaded his playlist, got more comfortable with my Tumblr (i.e. posting things that actually interested me), & he stopped following me about a week after he started.
I was never popular on Tumblr. The highest amount of followers I had was somewhere around 70, & the highest my Tumblarity ever reached was somewhere around 600.
Sounds like a lot but by Tumblr standards, that was just slightly better than average.
Tumblr made me feel like I actually had friends. I felt like we were all classmates, & maybe even closer because of all the personal shit people tend to put on the internet. There were a few girls I knew I could always talk to &, of course, the unattainable guy who always seems to play some kind of role in my life.
My Tumblr summer probably would've been better if Stephen hadn't been on there...or if he at least liked me.
Stephen was this cute 20 year old Candian kid that had eerily similar taste in music to mine & the best smile in the world. He had (has) a thing for super skinny blondes & much prettier brunettes, so I was always out of the question for him. I always liked & rebloged his posts, not because I liked him, but because he was fucking awesome. Every song lyric he posted was one of my favorite songs & every story he told was the funniest story I'd ever heard (like the time he gave someone's speech at the Oscars a standing ovation from his bedroom).
Stephen is not worth talking about. I'm sure he had some idea that I liked him, he just didn't care. That's life.
Tumblr was a fun way of finding myself as well. I posted shit I cared about & made random statements about what was going on around me. It was like a living, breathing diary that I could compare & contrast with a million others.
I kind of think Tumblr has gone to shit these days. I hardly ever check mine anymore, bigger names like Hayley Williams have caught on to it, & it doesn't seem like a bunch of lost teenagers/20-somethings anymore.
Ironically, my Tumblr url was derived from a Paramore lyric.
Well hey hey baby, it's never too late. Pretty soon you won't remember a thing. And I'll be distant as stars, reminiscent. Your heart's been wasted on me...
Decoy is not even close to my favorite Paramore song, but I adore that line & the way Hayley sings it. So that's where my name came from.
I feel so proud looking back at my old posts, even though it was only a year ago.
Sometimes, you really need to step back & check out just how fucking awesome you really are.
I miss Summer '09 & Tumblr '09...

The title's a link. Scope my archive on a rainy day.


A while ago, I subtly bragged about going to see Asher Roth. Well, I saw him about a month ago at a shitty fest in Altamont called... Applestock.
Sure, it was fall music festival but I think they could've come up with a better name.
I went for Asher & Asher only. However, I caught a few of the other acts & I'll speak on those briefly.
Shontelle- I felt sort of bad for this girl. I love her music & own her first album, but she was either tired, sick or just vocally exhausted. Her voice started acting up in the first song & by the last song, her biggest hit 'T-Shirt', she sounded like shit. I'm sure she's a very talented artist & thank God the crowd knew some of her songs so when she held the mic out to us, there wasn't an awkward silence to match the awkwardness of her voice... or lack thereof.
Benji & Joel Madden (a.k.a. Good Charlotte)- This was my 3rd time seeing "Good Charlotte", although the first two times, the entire band was there. Benji & Joel could have their own reality show. They are, by far, the world's cutest twins. From making fun of each other the entire time to arguing about who fucked up what part, they are two extremely entertaining people. I will never talk badly about either one of them. Their performance was awesome as usual.
One Republic- Hands down, one of the best live performaces I've ever seen. I've never really taken a good listen to their music (I have 3 or 4 of their songs from their first album on my iPod), but I doubt buying their music could compare to their live show. Their lead singer, Ryan, has one fuck of a voice & seeing that band live will stick with me more than most concerts I've gone to.
Asher- I honestly never thought I would see Asher Roth live. Hip hop artists don't tour half as much as bands & when they do, they only hit up the major cities.
When Asher & D.J. Wreckineyez came out, I was surprisingly not as stoked as I thought I would be. I was right up against the barricade & the people surrounding me consisted of 14-16 year old, white suburban kids who couldn't seem to stop talking about how they didn't know who Asher was. They kept talking about radio-dominating artists like Nicki Minaj & Lil Wayne to make it seem like they knew their shit when it comes to hip-hop. Constantly bragging that they only knew the "college song" & admitting they had no idea what Ash looks like (one claimed he had red hair), I was ready to kill someone by the time the show started.
Asher was fun & crazy handsome in person. I was the only person in the crowd who knew the words to his songs & I kind of felt like an outcast for actually being a real fan. Brain Bangley is, without a doubt, the most gorgeous dude I've ever seen in person.
He. Is. Fucking. Stunning.
After all those random posts I've made about how sexy, funny, & amazing Brain is, he exceeded my expectations by a thousand miles.
The main part of the show that irked me, I guess, was the fact that little old Mariah didn't get any love.
Not the back of the tour bus kind of love, but some minor appreciation.
I was right up front, singing the lyrics to songs that no one in the crowd could've given a less fuck about & I felt fucking invisible.
Boyd, who was also insanely gorgeous, did his typical walk through the front of the crowd to pick out girls for 'She Don't Want a Man'. He talked a few girls next to me into getting onstage, walked right past me & started talking to the 15 year old girl next to me, ultimately getting her to get onstage too.
The world knows, I'm shy as all hell & I would've been crazy to get onstage...but some recognition for being a decent looking, & not to mention legal, female, would've been beyond appreciated. The girls that ended up on stage were primarily young, hick-ish looking girls, with the exception of one woman in her mid-50's & one extremely attractive girl (the only one Boyd danced with).
As I said in one of my previous posts, Ash's his boys played whole rockstar shit. They weren't walking around the fair grounds for anyone to meet & say 'what's up' to, but that was to be expected.
Cheezey as it sounds, I went home feeling kind of empty.
It was almost like I wasted my time & energy on seeing these people who, in the end, didn't really see me.
I obviously I am not taking the whole thing personally. It was just another random, shitty experience...that just so happened to involve a bunch of people I thought I was in love with.
No hard feelings. Really.
Overall Review-
My local radio station got who they could afford. I wouldn't say I got my $17 worth (I've seen Lamb of God for $15). I don't think I'll ever go back to Applestock (or Altamont) again.
Fuck it.

Random Daily Haiku:

I'd give anything,
Just to have you for one day.
Please give me a chance.

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Scott Vogel is probably old enough to be my father, but he still looks good as fuck.
...And how fucking pretty is Denise?


Stuck at school as usual.
I really have to pee, but I'm fighting the urge so I can finish some of my drafts on this site.
It's almost poetry time, though!
1.5 hours of delicious boredom.
Again, there are a thousand assignments I need to get done for school.
Yet here I sit, mouse to the right of me, Cosmopolitan to the left, & the keys beneath my fingers.
I couldn't be happier right now...unless you put a certain someone next me.
That might just make things awkward, though.
I love the idea of seeing someone I like twice a week, for an hour and a half at a time. It makes me crave those days much more.
I tried to check out my horoscope but it's all over the fucking place.
Guess I'm gonna have to take fate in to my own hands today.
K, then.
Off to pee.

Sunday, November 7, 2010


Officially a broke college student.
I guess I have been for the past year or so, but now it's just getting stupid.
I worked a shitty job in the mall for about a month over the summer & into September.
...I made roughly $400.
Like, what?
Everyone that is hiring is only hiring for seasonal work & because I'm a student with a ridiculous schedule, I can only work certain hours on certain days.
I've always viewed school as my first priority BUT, let's face it, I'm not getting paid to go to school & I have shit that needs to be taken care of (like my severe music addiction).
I also happen to be kinda picky. I won't work in a dollar store, fast food, or grocery store.
I don't feel like I'm asking too much there. There's a million places left for me to's just SO irritating.
Anyway, I'm so sleepy right now, I can't even imagine being at work.
Again, fuck you, daylight savings time.

Quick Update:

-My computer got a virus & I had to go get it removed (for close to $100)

-The computer passed the virus on to my iPod (& it's still infected)

-I've been listening to Chimaira like a manic this week (until my iPod got sick)

-And...that's about it.

Fuck daylight savings time. It's pitch black out here in upstate NY, it's freezing & I feel like it should be 11 o'clock.