may be the hardest thing that I've ever done.
There is so much work to do,
work that they pretty much do for you in high school.
I'm sure I sound like a lazy, spoiled brat (& I am one),
I just never expected there to be so much involved.
I have to back to my old college tomorrow & pick up my transcripts for the second time, which wouldn't be so bad if the college wasn't a 20 minute drive from my house.
I then have to go to Staples & make copies of everything I think my financial aid woman will want.
Then I have meeting with her on Thursday.
Doesn't sound like much, but it's been like this all summer.
I'm technically a student now at the new college
but I'm not sure I can pay for it,
or that I can get help paying for it.
I really don't want to stress about it,
but it's like my mind is trying to relax & my body is freaking out on me.
Is there such thing as subconscious stress?
I feel like I need a fucking vacation but all I've been doing for the past 3 months is sitting on my ass, worrying.
I'm not sure what I'm going to do, & no one has been giving me any valid advice.
I don't know what I'll do with my life, if I can't start school again this fall.